Rising Through Disgust: Embracing Personal Power

Recently I’ve felt my personal power rising up.

Something inside me is demanding me to take control of my life, to live up to my potential, to take what’s mine.

And accompanied by this sense of power, there is an overwhelming feeling of nausea. As I muster up the courage to sit up straight, waves of disgust course up my body from my gut. It’s as if something inside me is repulsed by my authentic self… terrified of my authentic self… completely overwhelmed by my authentic self.

I don’t know why personal power and disgust go hand in hand for me. But there is a thick layer of shame covering up my creativity, initiative, strength, and audacity.

I’m ashamed to sit up straight.

I’m ashamed to express myself.

I’m even ashamed to work hard.

Something inside me feels unworthy and wants me to recoil back into the darkness.

But not this time.

I’m going to feel my own power and throw up all the disgust that comes up with it. I’m going to sit with the nausea fearlessly. I’m going to welcome whatever shame wants to tell me.

Because for women, we have been shamed for centuries for coming into our power. We’ve been shamed for our self-expression…