I Cannot Abuse Myself Anymore.

I have become addicted to social media.

I am addicted to some life that does not exist… a life of models, a life without flaws, a life of lavish wealth.

There is some part of me that refuses to embrace reality.

I refuse to acknowledge how much I have let my life fall apart.

I refuse to acknowledge how often I self-sabotage.

I refuse to acknowledge my mental illness and the steps I need to take to manage it.

I don’t take responsibility for anything. Instead, I escape into the lives of people who HAVE taken responsibility for their lives, and as a consequence, are living beautiful lives.

I hide behind a computer screen.

I hide behind a phone screen.

I hide behind eating foods that directly impact my mental health.

I have self-sabotaged my life to such an extreme that I don’t know where to turn anymore.

I feel powerless.

I feel helpless.

I feel so alone.

I finally hit my breaking point today. I finally realized I cannot do this by myself. I finally realized that I need God.