I Cannot Abuse Myself Anymore.
I have become addicted to social media.
I am addicted to some life that does not exist… a life of models, a life without flaws, a life of lavish wealth.
There is some part of me that refuses to embrace reality.
I refuse to acknowledge how much I have let my life fall apart.
I refuse to acknowledge how often I self-sabotage.
I refuse to acknowledge my mental illness and the steps I need to take to manage it.
I don’t take responsibility for anything. Instead, I escape into the lives of people who HAVE taken responsibility for their lives, and as a consequence, are living beautiful lives.
I hide behind a computer screen.
I hide behind a phone screen.
I hide behind eating foods that directly impact my mental health.
I have self-sabotaged my life to such an extreme that I don’t know where to turn anymore.
I feel powerless.
I feel helpless.
I feel so alone.
I finally hit my breaking point today. I finally realized I cannot do this by myself. I finally realized that I need God.